am i losing u?

feel exactly like e name of e blog now.. nth's goin rite.. nth's being conveyed properly.. but who do i haf to blame?


i said i wanted a cool down, i mean it, i need to learn.. bu look at wad's happening now?

i cant even think properly.. everytime mi mind clears.. i oni think of u.. wad u're doin now? how r u feeling? e feeling of ur touch.. e feeling of ur hug.. too overwhelming.. why am i so not in control of myself?

i need u back.. but i dunno how.. it's happens before.. i noe if i ask u to come back now without anything u'll jus feel tt im not respecting u.. it's true.. it's not fair to u tt i can choose to push u away n ask u back jus like tt..

but i noe tt things r goin way wrong now.. tt u're thinking tt i wan to gif up now..

but how could i? even if i wan to, can i do it? i dun even wan it in e first place..

it's jus tt, i reali feels tt i's a prob, for mi to not be able to c tt im taking u for granted.. n i reali want to change.. but like i sayid, u're too overwhelming.. so wad to do now?

wad if i reali cant change? r we goin to end jus lidat tt? is everything tt has happened for e past 7 months goin to be gone in jus a split seconds? this is driving mi nuts..

tell mi where to find e strength again if i lose u.. tell mi how to stand on mi own again..

im not losing u am i?

im jus losing miself..






im sorry