so many more happy things which i had wanted to post but nv did.. so y am i here when im at my weakest?
is this call distrust?
but i really do wan to believe in u.. really do wan to be nonchalant bout it..
so why does mi chest feels so tight?
so wad is this suffocating feeling?
so y am i staring at a phone which i noe wun ring anymore thru e night?

i dun wan to cry anymore, u had enuff of my tears..
stop e tots pls..
stop e crazy world in mi mind..
i wan to slp..
n wake up..
n let e feeling pass..
n pretend nth happen..

u haf done all u could.. now it's mi..
enuff of this weakness..
enuff of e tears..
enuff of myself..

for me u controlled urself..
for u i shud also control mi emotions..

i need to get back mi strength..
maybe it's really best for us if i could hold back more..
then i wun hope, den i wun be vulnerable, den e tears will stop..
den u wun be stress too..

stay strong chinthin, strong













let this dreadful nite pass quickly pls..