one yr and 7 months, so ironic we broke up on our 19th month anniversary, but i dun think u noe, or tt u will ever noe.
im so sorry tt our love haf bcom like this site, abandone...

i miss u so much..
n now e ubin trip will always be the most painful memory..
i reali wan to hold u again.. wan to be in ur arms..wan to be love n protected by u..
im not strong enuff to protect miself, i need u..
dun u get it? oni u can protect mi..
i reali dunno wad i can do to stop e tears..
n dunno wad i will do if u 2 ever got tgt, even tho i keep pushing u to her..

im reali willing to trade all mi wishes into one, for u to love mi, so y, y cant i get e wish fulfilled???

i reali feel like mi world is crushing down on me..
i envy her, even when she's sad, she can let u noe, n ask for u...
now, im jus by miself.. w/o u..
i hate myself.. hate myself for not being able to mk u love mi..
i nv felt so hurt before.. i cant even convince myself tt i'llget over u soon.. not like all e prevous times..

so many times, i've imagine walking down the isle towards u..
mus be bcos i hope too much,tt's y god took u away frm mi, god nv like mi being happy..
he loves seeing mi falling apart..
well god, u got ur wish, im falling apart, n there's nth i can do abt it.

n i've loved n lost mi bm on the 29th Sept 2009